Uncomfortable.

“Life begins outside of your comfort zone, so you are fully in life right now.” – T.J.L.

Those words have propelled me forward since January 2017.

I want to accomplish so much. I want to excel at what I do. I’m reaching for that 4.0, that pay raise, that word of mouth recommendation; I’m striving for that trip to Portugal and my 1890s dream house.

And just when I need them, those words resurface and push me forward. Life begins outside of my comfort zone. I am fully in life right now.

Those words make me feel proud – like I’m getting somewhere and becoming someone.

But I feel like I’ve gone too far. I’m so far outside of my comfort zone that I don’t think I can find my way back in again. I don’t necessarily want to be comfortable, but I do want to rest. I need to rest – but I can’t find rest. Hope, peace, and joy are within my grasp; but rest – especially physical rest – seems so beyond my reach. My bed is such a temporary haven: reality demands I leave it to pay bills, yet I owe my body so much sleep that it started to charge me interest. What happens when a person’s sleep debt goes to collections?

Heavenly Father, help me. I need a map – I need to find rest and balance in this uncomfortable zone.

If Jesus came to give us abundant life, does that mean He came to push us outside of our comfort zones?

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” – John‬ ‭10:10‬ ‭(ESV‬‬)

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