I know what it means to have unclear vision. When my glasses come off, everything in my world loses definition. Edges become softer, colors less vibrant. Even wearing glasses presents a challenge when I go from the frigid outdoors to a well-heated building (hello, lens fog) or I get smudges on my lenses.
Trying to see in the dark is probably something most of us are familiar with, too. Whether it’s putting makeup on in a dimly lit room because a bathroom light burned out, or driving somewhere late at night, not being able to see makes performing tasks difficult. It increases anxiety levels because it’s harder to perform and impossible to prepare for what’s next. Without sight, self sufficiency becomes so difficult – but I’m learning that self sufficiency may not be the best way to live this life.
Right now, there are some things I need to do that are difficult to perform because I can’t see well. There are some things I’m stressed about because I don’t know what’s going to happen. I’m uncomfortable and anxious because I tend to be pretty self confident (which does a total disservice to the Lord for showing up on the occasions I haven’t been too proud to let Him do so). But I realized something today: even if I’m squinting just to get a glimpse of the big picture, I am fully known by a God who also fully knows my situation. And what’s more, I can see Him. I don’t see the answers or the outcome – just the One who does. And that’s enough, because He knows everything and He loves me and He is worthy to be waited on.
For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known. – 1 Corinthians 13:12 (KJV)